A lot of times it starts with emotion. Like I've been pretty mentally blasted for the past few days, with no clear reason, and then tonight I ended up just lying on my couch and couldn't move - except physically I felt perfectly fine. Then it occurred to me to ask out loud, "Dar?" and after the third call, I got this really vivid image of her collapsed at the base of some tree, alone in the middle of virgin forest. And it kind of tore at me because I could feel living warmth from her body, firm/yielding like muscles under skin. I asked her, "Poison?" and the impression that came back was "No, just exhaustion." And that made it dissipate far enough to get up and write this.
Normally I talk to them by writing out conversations on paper, though. Or typing like IM. It's like IRL, I'm much more fluent in text than I am verbally.
And yeah, you're understanding right the bit about personal vortexes. Like take Dar and Fiona, they both have explosive tempers, and if they disagreed it might come to blows or worse, and I wouldn't want to splatter that all over your personal journal. Or Dar and Celesty - they started in the same story but even then they didn't get along, and now their lives have taken such divergent paths they can't even relate. They're both pretty intensely contemptuous of each other. Or Celesty and Fiona - they traveled together for a while in Water Song but disagreed about what to do, and Fiona started yelling, and Celesty just sat there and took it. That infuriated Fiona and she struck Celesty, and Celesty's too numbed out to even try to dodge. One of the other characters had to haul Fiona off by brute force. I don't want to facilitate that kind of abuse.
So yeah, lots of potential for conflict.
Daria and I - that one's harder to talk about, my respect for her. When I was a kid it was pure hero-worship. To come face to face and see her, and her see me, would only make me acutely aware of how much I've failed. I don't know what it would mean to her - oh. She's saying something about leadership and competition. For her it probably relates to this conundrum she's caught in, where she has the power to kill but not to make things better for her people.
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Date: 2009-04-24 01:57 am (UTC)Normally I talk to them by writing out conversations on paper, though. Or typing like IM. It's like IRL, I'm much more fluent in text than I am verbally.
And yeah, you're understanding right the bit about personal vortexes. Like take Dar and Fiona, they both have explosive tempers, and if they disagreed it might come to blows or worse, and I wouldn't want to splatter that all over your personal journal. Or Dar and Celesty - they started in the same story but even then they didn't get along, and now their lives have taken such divergent paths they can't even relate. They're both pretty intensely contemptuous of each other. Or Celesty and Fiona - they traveled together for a while in Water Song but disagreed about what to do, and Fiona started yelling, and Celesty just sat there and took it. That infuriated Fiona and she struck Celesty, and Celesty's too numbed out to even try to dodge. One of the other characters had to haul Fiona off by brute force. I don't want to facilitate that kind of abuse.
So yeah, lots of potential for conflict.
Daria and I - that one's harder to talk about, my respect for her. When I was a kid it was pure hero-worship. To come face to face and see her, and her see me, would only make me acutely aware of how much I've failed. I don't know what it would mean to her - oh. She's saying something about leadership and competition. For her it probably relates to this conundrum she's caught in, where she has the power to kill but not to make things better for her people.