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:D Maybe they'd make a good cooling system! I mean, if they weren't creepy as fuck. I could chase them around and, I dunno, try and learn how to overclock my brain or something.
I still don't know if I have a soul or not. I don't think souls as like, ghosty things, exist where I'm from. At least, I don't believe in them. But at the same time it feels kinda bad to say I don't have a soul. It's one of those things where you hear people talking every now and then, saying machines can't have souls, and when I was a little kid it kind of got to me. Because they're wrong, if souls exist. At least they'd better be. But it's not like I can go around sticking some kind of soul-o-meter on people to prove it. :\
Anyway, if I meet a speritu, I'm not sticking around to figure out if it can kill me or not.
I still don't know if I have a soul or not. I don't think souls as like, ghosty things, exist where I'm from. At least, I don't believe in them. But at the same time it feels kinda bad to say I don't have a soul. It's one of those things where you hear people talking every now and then, saying machines can't have souls, and when I was a little kid it kind of got to me. Because they're wrong, if souls exist. At least they'd better be. But it's not like I can go around sticking some kind of soul-o-meter on people to prove it. :\
Anyway, if I meet a speritu, I'm not sticking around to figure out if it can kill me or not.
In this case, soul means the ability to experience intense emotions. As in, to be scared enough that they can get high on it. Though that's a fascinating concept - by that definition, you could make a soul-machine that wasn't even sentient, that just gave the illusion of sentience. Like a character in a movie or something. Hahahahaha, I wonder whether speritu would be interested in scary movies if they came to Earth. Maybe it wouldn't be the same if it was just a picture of a scared person.
And it's sperith singular, speritu plural. Same as it's sarkoth singular, sarkotu plural. Karn languages can be weird like that.
And it's sperith singular, speritu plural. Same as it's sarkoth singular, sarkotu plural. Karn languages can be weird like that.
Oh. Yeah, then I do have a soul. I'd probably be screaming like a little girl if I saw a speritu- er, sperith. Earth language can be weird like that, too. Goose are geeses. ...Wait! I mean, gooses are geese! Yonjuunana, stop laughing! It's not THAT funny! (Yonjuunana: Hahahahaha, I'm having another "want to record audio out of my brain" moment. I wasn't planning that, it's how he said it!)
How smart are the speritu? If they're dumb, maybe you could just paint a bunch of D8> faces on trees and they could all stand around and stare at them and be all "Muahahaha, look how good we're doing our job scaring people."
How smart are the speritu? If they're dumb, maybe you could just paint a bunch of D8> faces on trees and they could all stand around and stare at them and be all "Muahahaha, look how good we're doing our job scaring people."
OH MY GOD, TRAINS ARE BORING.
...Sorry. Just needed to vent to someone other than Yonjuunana, because she totally doesn't understand what I'm saying here.
...Sorry. Just needed to vent to someone other than Yonjuunana, because she totally doesn't understand what I'm saying here.
Hahahahaha!
I had to take a train ride once with a former boyfriend, from Indiana to Denver, and he was exactly of the same opinion. He sat there and talked to me and talked to me and talked to me for like 24 hours straight. You shoulda been there, you could have saved me. :P
I had to take a train ride once with a former boyfriend, from Indiana to Denver, and he was exactly of the same opinion. He sat there and talked to me and talked to me and talked to me for like 24 hours straight. You shoulda been there, you could have saved me. :P
Ah, I wish it was that easy. They don't sense things the same way as people. It doesn't matter what you look like if you have fear-vibes coming off you. So we'd have to find some way to scare the trees. :P
They are pretty dumb though. Except it's more like distractedness than stupidity, like how straight would you be thinking if - well, maybe that analogy wouldn't work on you, but how straight would 47 be thinking if she hadn't eaten in a month and suddenly there was a big banquet spread in front of her. That's what a newly exiled toren kid looks like to a sperith.
They are pretty dumb though. Except it's more like distractedness than stupidity, like how straight would you be thinking if - well, maybe that analogy wouldn't work on you, but how straight would 47 be thinking if she hadn't eaten in a month and suddenly there was a big banquet spread in front of her. That's what a newly exiled toren kid looks like to a sperith.
Sorry for the delay in replying... I, or shall I say we, have been really exhausted all the time lately.
D: Maybe your circumstances are different from ours. We try to avoid getting emotionally carried away, because that is when we can lose control over our powers and then they can become particularly damaging and then harm people and things we didn't mean to harm. We've come to see it as something to be used in self-defense only.
But you're right--being mad is what makes the powers all the more effective! That's when they come out!
D: Maybe your circumstances are different from ours. We try to avoid getting emotionally carried away, because that is when we can lose control over our powers and then they can become particularly damaging and then harm people and things we didn't mean to harm. We've come to see it as something to be used in self-defense only.
But you're right--being mad is what makes the powers all the more effective! That's when they come out!
D: I am actually Avery's mom. Though I've started considering myself Lillian's sort-of mother-in-law. :)
I guess - I've not used it except in self-defense. So I've never had to look at what I've done and think how terrible it was.
Well. That's not really true. But it didn't have anything to do with fire magic. It was just me being.... stupid, I guess. But I didn't think so at the time. I was only trying to keep everyone safe. I'm not even really sure how it happened, but my son ended up seeing some things I really didn't want him to see. Stuff a four-year-old shouldn't have to think about. I don't think he remembers, and I'm not going to remind him, but it's my fault for going to a place where bad things could happen.
And I guess it's not true that I've only used fire in self-defense either. I play with it, and sometimes I use it for stupid everyday things like starting the cookfire going.
It's ok if you don't answer right away. What's going on that's making you so tired?
Well. That's not really true. But it didn't have anything to do with fire magic. It was just me being.... stupid, I guess. But I didn't think so at the time. I was only trying to keep everyone safe. I'm not even really sure how it happened, but my son ended up seeing some things I really didn't want him to see. Stuff a four-year-old shouldn't have to think about. I don't think he remembers, and I'm not going to remind him, but it's my fault for going to a place where bad things could happen.
And I guess it's not true that I've only used fire in self-defense either. I play with it, and sometimes I use it for stupid everyday things like starting the cookfire going.
It's ok if you don't answer right away. What's going on that's making you so tired?
That's fine. I know it gets kind of hard to keep us straight, since our families have gotten entwined like this.
Avery: I've been in the *looks at what I've done* "Oh, how terrible!" position myself. =(
Deborah: As a mom, I understand the guilt and questions that must linger in your head after feeling like you put your child through something you shouldn't have.
About the tiredness, our "creator" has not been in very good health lately. She has been sleeping a lot and barely able to concentrate while awake. She blames it on her weight. I keep telling her she needs to exercise more and do something about her blood sugar, but she is having a hard time battling the fatigue. I've also suggested taking cohosh and cinnamon, to no avail.
Deborah: As a mom, I understand the guilt and questions that must linger in your head after feeling like you put your child through something you shouldn't have.
About the tiredness, our "creator" has not been in very good health lately. She has been sleeping a lot and barely able to concentrate while awake. She blames it on her weight. I keep telling her she needs to exercise more and do something about her blood sugar, but she is having a hard time battling the fatigue. I've also suggested taking cohosh and cinnamon, to no avail.
I...I'm too ashamed to say. -_- Unless I can swear you to secrecy...
Um, this probably isn't the best place for secrets that bad. Anyone can come and read it if they want to. Maybe some other place when there's more privacy.
It really really sucks though, knowing you've fucked up and there's nothing you can do to fix it.
It really really sucks though, knowing you've fucked up and there's nothing you can do to fix it.
Was this the result of stress? I've noticed that I've been fatigued after getting extremely stressed out or awake too long. Sometimes I'm up all night because of my job.
Cohoshes are herbs that help with things like your hormones, menstrual cycle, and hot flashes. Actually, there has been research against their effectiveness against hot flashes lately, but I still believe in these herbs for other uses.
Cohoshes are herbs that help with things like your hormones, menstrual cycle, and hot flashes. Actually, there has been research against their effectiveness against hot flashes lately, but I still believe in these herbs for other uses.
Creator note: Yeah, he's definitely not putting his secret out here. Besides, it'd spoil the story for ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
pyraxis. :P
I need a Deborah icon.
pyraxis. :PI need a Deborah icon.
Aww, I dunno if you'd want me on a train with you, though. Maybe instead of saving you I'd just spend the whole time talking at you as well. I don't wanna make your head explode. :P
*grin* Yeah, but I don't know him and you're fun to talk to!
Yeah I guess you'd call it stress. She was crashed out for months. She went "running" anyway but it was a lot of the time just walking 'cause it was all she could do to get out the door.
'Course you're gonna get fatigued if you're extremely stressed out and awake too long. That's what the body does. Or it crashes out in some other way. Something just snaps, and if it doesn't, your body makes it happen by making you clumsy and have an accident, or fuck your immune system till you catch a disease, or something. For me I got - bit - and got sick from poison.
'Course you're gonna get fatigued if you're extremely stressed out and awake too long. That's what the body does. Or it crashes out in some other way. Something just snaps, and if it doesn't, your body makes it happen by making you clumsy and have an accident, or fuck your immune system till you catch a disease, or something. For me I got - bit - and got sick from poison.
Hey, can I ask about the "don't identify as a multiple" thing? I've been doing more research into multiplicity stuff and am still trying to figure out what the heck to identify as, or what vocabulary is best to describe myself. *grin* And then in the comments in that post by beauty_eternal you talk about multiplicity and it sounds like you are including yourself in that.
I'll probably be doing a lot more processing of this stuff in my new lj filter soon. I think I have a lot to say, both about the blurring between imagination and multiplicity, and about the communication in groups of multiples stuff you mentioned, but I'm pretty exhausted and pressed for time at the moment so I guess this is just another "I'm thinking about it and will get it out in words eventually" notification. :)
beauty_eternal you talk about multiplicity and it sounds like you are including yourself in that. I'll probably be doing a lot more processing of this stuff in my new lj filter soon. I think I have a lot to say, both about the blurring between imagination and multiplicity, and about the communication in groups of multiples stuff you mentioned, but I'm pretty exhausted and pressed for time at the moment so I guess this is just another "I'm thinking about it and will get it out in words eventually" notification. :)
My first introduction to multiplicity was the trauma-based definition and there are still a lot of people that think of it that way. DID, extreme abuse, all that. I don't want to run the risk of people overhearing little bits of what I talk about and classing me that way. I would find it beyond embarrassing to have to explain to someone that I was not badly traumatized, and in a way I find it disrespectful to the people who have survived stuff like that to turn "multiplicity" into a half-game that writers play and can put aside whenever it's convenient. It's the same way that I make a clear distinction between "autism" and "on the autism spectrum".
I figured thatbeauty_eternal knew enough about different terminology that I didn't have to worry about that confusion with her.
I figured that
beauty_eternal knew enough about different terminology that I didn't have to worry about that confusion with her.
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