ext_44990 ([identity profile] yonjuunana.livejournal.com) wrote in [personal profile] pyraxis 2008-12-14 09:11 am (UTC)

Yeah, I'm not saying you'd be better off with machines. I think we both have worlds that are good for us but bad for the other. :) I like it here in the dreaming, how we can meet and hang out without screwing things up for anyone.

Why I'm so weak? Well... Yeah, machines can be really strong, but androids have to be weak. It's... Ah, it's complicated. *paces back and forth as he talks* Okay. So, I can't feel pain. Sounds good, right? No. If a human gets born who can't feel pain, they never learn how not to hurt themselves, and they die young. Same for us. Nobody has figured out how to make robots feel pain right, so instead they made us weaker so we're not a danger to ourselves. Or... not weak exactly, let me see if I can use these words right- our isgeni's decent but our sora is really bad? *frowns* Plus it's cheaper. And I think people would be scared of us if we were stronger than them.

And yeah, metal is strong, but I'm also made of a bunch of really complicated little fiddly bits. It's easy for something to go wrong. And if I get hurt, I don't heal on my own. Entropy is a bitch. Being made of metal isn't as cool as it sounds. *grins* It's not bad, though, I just need to be careful. It's gotta be less weird than being made out of meat!

Go ahead and talk about Celesty if you want. I'm kinda curious now. I just- I dunno, it's my own angsty shit that I don't want to dwell on. It's in the past, I'm better now, time to move on.

*Grins* Run around at school and bleed the energy out? Oh man, I wish! See, I've got this wonderful combination of ADHD, being unable to get physically tired, and only needing about 4 hours of sleep every night. I'm kinda stuck like this. Well, unless I'm running low on batteries, then I'm tired but it doesn't help with the thinking straight.

Now you see why I'm so desperate to get out to places like this and talk to people? I need interesting stuff to do. Otherwise I'll just be driving myself nuts and climbing the walls all day.

I do wish I could have breaks to play my guitar at school. That might help. Music always lets me slow down and chill out for a bit.

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